• Woke up at 330am crying & screaming because I had a nightmare/strange fucking dream about my best friend of 18 years who committed suicide in August. Bobby calmed me down, took me to the bath room to go pee because I was afraid to open the bedroom door. And then we went back to sleep.
• Aside from that panic attack, I had two more today in the course of 3 hours.
• I decided to take a nap. So I did. I woke up to the sky orange and black and rain coming down and then it quickly cleared. I had a check for all of $53 from this one place I worked at for a day because they failed to tell me how much traveling is involved in that job. Since I don’t have a car, I had to quit.
• Before I took my nap I messaged my best friends sister (the guy mentioned in the first bulletin) about how he’s been visiting me in my dreams and she said that hes been doing that to someone else. She also told me how he donated most of his organs and the people that received them are all very thankful and happy to have a second chance at life. We will never know or understand why Kevin committed suicide but we will all miss him dearly.
• I also received a Medicaid card in the mail but it only covers family planning services. After a bunch of calling around I learned that the card covers Paragard which is the non-hormonal IUD that lasts 5 - 15 years! I have to wait til Monday to get in touch with my case worker and see what I can do to get set up with Paragard
• I only have an hour until Bobby gets home. EEEEE, so excited for the weekend together.
• I am also going to talk with my case worker for Medicaid to try and get approved for full coverage to cover my diabetes. I’m currently going to a free clinic but they have no idea how to manage diabetes. I am desperate to see an endocrinologist but they refuse to cover the costs to send me to one. I am also hoping that Medicaid might cover insulin pumps because it is my dream to obtain an insulin pump.
• Today started gosh awful and its already getting even better!!!

Anonymous asked: What's one thing that you dislike about your husband other than he works alot?

There honestly isn’t a single thing that I hate about him. I love every single one of his features and attributes. I love him as he is. I wouldn’t dare change anything about him, except his work schedule.

Anonymous asked: if your so hard up for cash why did you wast it on dermals your going to get removed that cost more money. you need to manage your money better. like dont have pets if you cant take care of them and get stupid shit and then bitch about how your poor.

1. When I got my dermals, I wasn’t as hard up for money as I was now. And I was helping a friend out because he really needed the cash.

2. I had my pets long before I had any money problems. I used to make over 1k a month but shit has died down for me so things are a lot harder when I’m barely making $100 a month.

Anonymous asked: why do you have bruises on you. its not sexy.

The bruise on my arm is from hitting a tall dresser. The ones on my stomach are from taking my insulin. I take anywhere from four to ten shots in the stomach a day. I usually edit them off but I didn’t feel like it.

Anonymous asked: The four posted below just never seen them but i love them.

I took them sometime last week, I think. I was posting on 4chan’s /b/ section, trying to get more fans to buy my content… having the worst of luck with sales right now.

Anonymous asked: When did you take those photos?

Recently. Depends which ones you’re asking about.

That bruise on my arm came from me walking into a tall dresser at night. #fail